anxiety ill go out then my brain tells me 2 fo back in

Please help me😞įirst I’d like to say that I have been through all of this before. I feel trapped in a pool of my own thoughts trying to eat me alive. When I'm alone and SOMETIMES with him, the thoughts hit me and I just want to cry. The only time these feelings kinda go away is when I do things together with my boyfriend. Just so many issues that have again, slowed down a bit. I was sweating with a cold feeling and every noise I heart scared me and made my heart race. Could I be depressed and anxious? The first 2 weeks of this issue. He tries to understand to the best of his ability and he's as supportive as he can be. I cry to him over the phone, explaining to him how much this is hurting me. we sleep on the phone together every night and it's something I can't not do. He truly loved me to the core and I do too. I keep getting these intrusive thoughts like 'do I love him' 'what if I will feel like this forever and the only way to get better is if we leave each other'. all I want to do is get back to being happy with him. It's truly killing me because I don't want to end things with him. But when I overthink and get these thoughts.I cannot. I can still be sexual with him some days. We talked about our future, and what we want. Everyday, my love truly grew stronger for him. I don't fantasize about my future anymore because the want to 'live' is kind of gone. cause me to feel extremely overwhelmed everyday. These thoughts give me multiple breakdowns a week. It's so unique and that's what makes it so special. We have a relationship like you've never seen before.

'do I love him?' a thought so truly devastating and painful that I was crying all day.

Hello, thanks for reading and I apologize for the length.Ībout a month and a half ago, something happened in my relationship (my fault) that kind of triggered (at first) an enormous amount of guilt.

Anxiety ill go out then my brain tells me 2 fo back in